Editor’s Note: Lea Toubian is a candidate for External Vice President for Local Affairs in this spring’s Associated Students election.
“Fuck that bitch running for EVPLA … I’m so glad we are not on campus ’cause I could not stand seeing her face…”
This was the first of 11 tweets written about me five days ago. At first, I was shocked. Although I knew what I was getting myself into when I announced my candidacy for EVPLA in yet another Associated Students election this past week, I did not expect the drama to get this toxic, or this personal. My brother attempted to make light of the situation: “Now you know what it’s like to have #haters,” he joked. But I couldn’t keep myself from refreshing the page, reading over and over again the dehumanizing words about my identity and experiences, looking through the profiles of the strangers who seemed to know me without ever trying. As I read lies and rumors about myself and my peers, the numbing ache in my stomach grew, but I was unable to tear my eyes away.
It’s not like I’ve never received any sort of backlash before. As an outspoken advocate for my community, and someone who’s been “through the wringer” in Associated Students at UCSB, I’ve certainly experienced and witnessed more than my fair share of toxicity and (usually indirect) harassment.
I am the daughter of Iranian immigrants. My parents and most of my family, like thousands of others, left Iran for fear of being persecuted as part of a Jewish minority when the Islamic regime violently came to power. I’m also white-passing, and I have publicly acknowledged the immense privilege I carry because of that. I deeply understand the harmful potentials of equating my experiences with those of other brown folks, experiences I will never truly know myself. I am a first-generation college student. English was my second language. The most common question I’m asked is, “Persian Jews exist?”
There. Now you know a little bit more about me ー more than the author of that tweet does, and likely more than the people behind the 50+ anonymous comments left on my Nexus endorsement article. I do not need to justify or be performative about my lived experiences to appease those who want to doubt, discredit and invalidate me.
These things are all essential parts of my identity. They are all valid. They are not up for debate.
They will not be erased. I will not be erased.
For years, Jewish students have been speaking out about anti-Semitism and our experiences on this campus. Yet in my experience, we are often harassed, bullied and excluded from progressive spaces on campus for our beliefs. The author of the tweet does not know me and yet felt like it was appropriate to erase and dismiss every single thing about me. In their eyes, nothing — not my years of dedication to progressive causes, my personal experiences or struggles or any of the work I have done on this campus — none of that is valid because of their preconceived notions of who I am.
Whether it’s the anonymous comments; or that at last year’s divestment resolution hearing, a former A.S. Senate candidate stated that “Jewish students shouldn’t have as much power as they do on this campus”; or that a current candidate alluded to age-old anti-Semitic tropes in their Nexus questionnaire response by implying that pro-Israel students “truly own the school,” harm against our community continues to be brushed under the rug.
I am being targeted because I am a public figure at this school. I am not afraid to speak my truth about issues that are important to me, and I am putting myself out there to run this campaign. I knew that displaying vulnerability would open the door for attacks on my character. However, the rest of my community, those who do not run for office or are hesitant to express themselves and those who just simply want to be accepted members of the student body, are just as affected by incidents like this. They witness this rhetoric and are made to feel fearful of their peers. Which is exactly the objective: People like this want us to be scared. They want to silence us.
In today’s society, it’s increasingly easy to pick a side hyper-fast and stick to it. To reference a saying I heard recently, conversation has become either meaningless or impossible. We embolden ourselves within the comfort of our self-constructed echo chambers, “cancelling” anyone or anything that would make us question our ways.
To my peers in A.S.: Why do you think the student body is fed up with us? When Senate meetings run for hours, Daily Nexus articles are flooded with anonymous comments full of slurs and baseless accusations and social media feeds are cluttered with ruthless campaigning and (not-so) subtle jabs at competitors, their faith in our ability to serve them dwindles.
We’ve turned into a reality show. At best, we’re the laughing stock of this campus; at worst, a waste of student fees. And when it comes to supporting our friends when it’s their turn to take the stage, we tear each other down. When elections come around, some of the most vocal people in our organization, who promise to uplift marginalized communities and uphold progressive values, are the ones who engage in this harmful behavior, stripping people of their complexities in their attempt to make them fit into their binary definitions of “good” or “bad.” Instead of fairly criticizing platform points and ideals, this has become a competition of whose identity is the most valid.
When we expend so much energy fighting each other, we distract and become distracted from the fights that really matter — our graduate students are calling on us to support them, our balconies are collapsing while our landlords stay silent and the lawsuits against our UCPD are still stalled. Where is our solidarity?
Are these the hands we want to leave the fate of our campus in? Will these be the people to create tangible change at UCSB, or will A.S. revert to its divisive, unproductive ways?
To the UCSB student body: You each pay over $600 to Associated Students. It is my hope that you will elect honest, focused and principled leaders who are capable of this responsibility.
It’s up to you, Gauchos.
Lea Toubian is disappointed that students are tearing each other down during this already difficult time and hopes we can start to treat each other with respect.
Lea is the leader this school needs.
Lol
no one wants to silence Jewish students, they just want y’all to stop supporting the deaths of Palestinians
I do not think that anyone on this entire campus would wish death on another person or group
If only that were true and we wouldn’t still be having the same debate about divestment every year :/
A tired and false narrative which feeds the counter narrative that the Palestinians are terrorists and pro Palestine is pro terrorist.
Grow up and learn nuance and reality
The Syrian government has killed more Muslims in the past 5 years than Israel has its entire existence. Well, of course yall don’t care about that since it doesn’t give you the satisfaction of attacking a jew.
keep seeing this “attacking a Jew” rhetoric …… all ppl wanna do is divest, why take it to this level?
Human deaths should NEVER be a numbers game and to carelessly invalidate the deaths of Muslims in Israel is sickening. Please learn to practice empathy.
The hypocrisy in your comment is amazing. This what is done to the jews killed by Muslims in Israel. Please learn to practice empathy.
Stop spouting strawmen like these. There’s a difference between Jewish and Pro-Israel.
At the end of the day, your leadership, work ethic, and ideas outshine all the shouting. If putting yourself out there and getting shit done were easy, everybody would do it. That’s what makes you remarkable! If you put in the time to work hard at being positive, it’s a much better life. But it does take work, and you show time and time again you’re down to put in that work. Negativity is easy, and negative people are typically lazy people. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Somebody had to say it!!!!!! Much respect for this being addressed ~FINALLY~
Incredible!! We love you Lea
happy she wrote this but most of the negative comments were abt the other girl running tho
Lea still has yet to adequately address her comments referring to herself as a “women of color” to defeat a proposal that was clearly proposed by members of marginalized communities. It is quite disgusting to defend multinational corporations, that are clearly hurting people of color, by attempting to tokenize yourself as a person of color. I understand that she may have said something way after the meeting; however, she did not attempt to reach out to the people of color which were directly harmed by her comments. I think its completely fair to reiterate the harm she caused to already… Read more »
perfectly worded
Harm…..? Validate all types of diversity.
preach
Are you undermining the Iranian experience as a people of color? I’ve noticed just the same way the white supremacists used to change the definition of while based what benefited them, IVP is changing the definition of people of color whenever it won’t allow them to attack jews. Shame on ya’ll tbh
I am also Iranian, and I recognize we are a people of color, but I’m seeing a lot of people defending this woman by comparing our experience to that of black and brown people which is frightening because at the end of the day, if we claim that our “color” has defined an experience for us like the experiences of black and brown people, we are lying. Yes, we face discrimination, yes we get terrorist jokes thrown at us, but that should never be an opportunity for us to say we have the same understanding of life as someone who… Read more »
I am sorry i didnt realize that there was an established know hierarchy of different nationalities for people of color would you mind expanding as to where other groups would stand?
Other candidates have literally encountered extreme racism and instead of publicizing it further, they reached out to their opposition to draft a letter of solidarity. Instead of trying to reach across the isle and recognizing that your opponent, yasamin, has also been the brunt of extreme attack by those who support you, you decided to send a letter to the nexus? Make it make sense. I’m not saying that hate is justified in any case but it’s interesting to see the pattern of playing victim continue
Lea deserves to have her voice heard. She is an impressive and amazing young leader and woman. It is really quite a shame that others hide behind social justice to be so cruel and hurtful to others. Everyone is only human. Compassion and unity is more important than agendas.
and that’s on islamophobia :(
love that you’re anti-hate speech, just curious when campus united is gonna apologize for their member’s transphobic actions of last year?
The Daily Nexus misreported Zion’s platform, someone posted it on Reddit, and then a few people were dumb enough to fall for the bait and spread the misinformation. Those are the facts.
And through the spread of misinformation they played a part in enabling transphobia, those are the facts. They used their platform to spread that vile cesspool of a reddit thread, and NONE OF THEM took responsibility for their actions, and neither did their party.
probably didn’t help that numerous people affiliated with campus united reposted the reddit thread and still spread transphobic rhetoric. the lengths people will go to defend transphobic sentiments is unreal…
It’s interesting how the “few people” who were dumb enough to fall for it were also Campus United elected senators and executives, I.e. Batsheva Labowe-Stoll, Nima Bencohen, Anthony Pimentel.
^^^
Free Palestine tho
kose nanat tho
khafe sho jendeh
Once saw a tweet that said “I’m a zionist and I refuse to support the freedom of Palestine, but if you mention this, you’re the racist. The racism card is a great way to silence valid criticism so expect to see it a lot”
“We’ve turned into a reality show. At best, we’re the laughing stock of this campus; at worst, a waste of student fees.” Well that’s definitely true
It is really frustrating that students are actively denying and invalidating Lea’s ethnicity and family heritage. Being white passing is not unique, but what is different is that she is Jewish. And I find it really difficult to see these comments as anything but double-standards against Jewish students. That is antisemitism. Typing “Free Palestine” as if that is going to solve the problem – invalidating her campaign and qualifications – with a comment that effectively demonizes an entire group of people, does nothing. We are not going to solve the humans rights crisis happening in the Palestinian territories with a… Read more »
I personally think that one really good way of ensuring that Palestinians are no longer abused or oppressed is by freeing Palestine
Lea brings her ethnicity and religious affiliation into her candidacy. Personally, I’m asking why its even relevant? But then its even weirder when someone like you comes along and says “why isn’t even relevant?”. Well I don’t know, why don’t you ask Lea? She’s the one bringing these topics into the conversation.
Go Lea go! Love you and can’t wait to see you, the most qualified person win!
Lea jan, thank you so much for being the champion of the Persian community on campus. Ignore the hate comments. They will even ignore our families’ refugee experience just to attack you and your Jewish heritage.
Legit same!! So many people fail to realize this!!
I just feel like the comments she’s referring to as “dehumanizing” really weren’t? Like they were calling her out on something she said that she failed to directly address once again. I would like to see more accountability and transparency bc that’s all that AS people say they’re gonna practice anyways.
Thank you for having the strength and bravery to write such an important piece – for anyone else reading, belittling the Iranian and/or Jewish experience with negative comments does nothing to help any marginalized group at all, so what’s the point? We should work towards supporting one another and cultivating TRUE allyship, as members of the Jewish, Iranian, Palestinian, and ALL other marginalized ethnic and/or religious communities – in America and around the globe – need to stop believing the best way to pull themselves up is by pulling others down. It’s shameful to say that just because Lea is… Read more »
SOMEBODY SAID IT!
“When we expend so much energy fighting each other, we distract and become distracted from the fights that really matter — our graduate students are calling on us to support them, our balconies are collapsing while our landlords stay silent and the lawsuits against our UCPD are still stalled. Where is our solidarity?” What can A.S. do about any of this? Next to nothing beyond (perhaps) moral support. Landlord-tenant relations are not the province of student government. Ditto for the lawsuits against university police-it’s the legal system’s job to resolve them. Beyond being a pass-through of funds to student organizations,… Read more »
First, I’d like to address the portion written on the Iranian Revolution. The Iranian Revolution (not Islamic, which I’ll explain in a second), was actually relatively peaceful compared to most other revolutions (French, Cuban, American, Russian). Most of the acts of violence were from the Shah’s regime towards the protestors (Jaleh Square, 1978). It was not an Islamic revolution because from when the protests began until the fall of the Shah, the protestors consisted of leftists, Islamists, communists, and nationalists. Later (after the revolution), Khomeini purged the other groups and attempted to claim the revolution for the Islamists by white-washing… Read more »
thank you for this, someone needed to say it
“They wouldn’t have been a target for simply being Jewish.” This comment is stupid. Talk to people who actually experienced the revolution. Heres just ONE example of many that my family had to go through- Khomeini’s militia went to an area of predominantly Jews during their day of rest and cornered everyone there surrounding them on all sides and intimidated them with violence and threatened them along with physically containing several people just to send a message to the Jewish Community. My father wasn’t even pro shah but experienced this violence simply because he jewish. Your comment is very ignorant.… Read more »
I would love to see some sources about the things you’re saying because if you do some research into this topic you would see that, at least on a large scale, there is little anti-semitism in Iran. Khomeini (whom I am definitely not a fan of) explicitly said that there was a difference between people of the Jewish faith and people who worked to uphold Israeli supremacy over the Palestinians. Many Jewish people in Iran fled after a single person who assisted the Israelis economically was executed (Habib Elghanian). There is a Haaretz article on the implications of his execution.… Read more »
You have misunderstood my point. Yes, there can be degrees of anti semitism- I am not saying that other countries don’t have it worse- HOWEVER, your comment aims to erase anti semitism in Iran just by comparing it to countries that have it worse. This is analogous to saying something like “racism in the UK doesn’t exist, see how much worse it is in America.” You can not erase anti- semitism in Iran via this route. And furthermore, why should personal anecdotes be deemed meaningless? Just because a group didn’t have the privilege to get their stories published in your… Read more »
And in regards to your very ignorant argument- “why does Iran’s constitution make it mandatory that there be a Jewish representative in Iran’s parliament”
Do you realize this is exactly like saying: “America isn’t racist because there is minority representation in politics.” If starting tomorrow the US enacted a law that required representation from African Americans in our govt would Racism against blacks disappear? NO. Did racism against blacks disappear when we had a black president? Again, NO. You keep on proving yourself to be very ignorant.
I guess by your definition the entire world is an anti-semitic hatefest because anti-semitic incidents have occurred everywhere (as have every other form of racism against basically every other group). No one said that anti-semitic incidents don’t occur in Iran. I said that as a general rule, Iran is not an anti-semitic country. And I agree with you, it is on a spectrum and Iran is very low on that spectrum, particularly when compared to the history of its neighbors as well as that of Europe
In addition, I would suggest you read about people like Abdol Hossein Sardari who was responsible for saving thousands of Europeans Jews from the holocaust by issuing them passports to Iran. Doesn’t sound like a country with a “very anti-semitic culture”!
It’s interesting because as a senator lea promoted divisive, harmful behavior. Although ethnically not being white, she adhered to white supremacist ideologies in the silencing of people of color consistently throughout her term. She’s running with a party that promotes transphobia, seen in the 2019 election. This article just feels like a fabrication of token terms she can’t enact as she is part of the divisive problem.
Goh nakhor baba
Lea acts like she wants a non-divisive school yet as a student actively creates a divisive environment by uplifting behavior that promotes the subordination of Palestinian students. As a leader, she should be taking a non-biased stance on our school being involved in the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, rather than promoting zionist behavior. It comes down to the question of how is she going to represent Palestinian students on campus? By further supporting our investments in the Israeli side because she has cultural ties? That’s…. not how a leader should be acting at a public university.
I’m a Palestinian student and I don’t feel at all subordinated by Lea’s actions or values – she cares about supporting the Jewish/Israeli perspective of her heritage while also caring deeply about the welfare of Palestinians. Not all Palestinians think that the state of Israel needs to be abolished, a lot of Palestinians are actually against the BDS movement because of the harm it imposes on Palestinian workers’ livelihoods (who work in Israel, btw), and a lot of us are really tired of being misrepresented in the media and on college campuses by people who think they’re our allies.
all of y’all who are attacking her for her beliefs & identity are just proving her point
Nobody is attacking her for her beliefs and identities. They’re just pointing out that she claims she wants a non-divisive A.S. and student body, but then she plays identity politics.
Ah yes, antisemitism is still alive and well at UCSB. You antisemites disgust me.
Not cowtowing to Israel is not the same as being anti-semitic. What a boring strawman. Get real.
Lol. Another moron who equates criticism of the criminal Israeli government with anti Semitism…
Rationalize it as you may, but everyone knows that you simply hate and persecute Jews.
Rationalize it as you may, but everyone knows that you simply hate and persecute Palestinians. See how that works? I can make stuff up too
Palestinians were complicit with Nazis in WWII. Nothing has changed.
No, the Grand Mufti of Jerusalem welcomed Hitler, but he was not a representative of all Palestinians.
Israelis are the present-day Nazis.
Which statement is why Zionists as opposed to Jews need to be purged.
10 years ago, my cousin, a “Born again Christian” went to Israel for a visit to be “closer to God”. She was murdered in a bomb attach by a Palestinian, because he wanted to kill Jews. Those Palestinians are a kind, peace loving group.
>insert personal anecdote that can be used to scapegoat an entire group
Are you usually this stupid?
Ah yes, name calling. Very impressive, if you are a 5 year old.
So are “born again Christians.” All they want to do is kill gay and trans people and reboot slavery…
… well I guess her divisiveness is what lost her the seat of EVPLA!
Let this be a warning to all Jews on campus. Antisemitism is alive and well at UCSB.